#1 SHINE “You’re here to be light, bringing out the God-colors in the world. God is not a secret to be kept. We’re going public with this, as public as a city on a hill. If I make you light-bearers, you don’t think I’m going to hide you under a bucket, do you? I’m putting you on a light stand. Now that I’ve put you there on a hilltop, on a light stand—shine! Keep open house; be generous with your lives. By opening up to others, you’ll prompt people to open up with God, this generous Father in heaven.” Jesus speaking, recorded in Matthew 5:14-16 MSG
i started on the radio on a Thursday afternoon in July 1990. on Saturday morning two days later, i was pacing through my house praying, telling God it was too hard, i couldn’t “white out” any mistakes, that I couldn’t do it UNLESS He made it perfectly clear that it was His will. It was an intense prayer time. I was rattled and I remember being very honest and direct as I paced and told Him I needed peace. I grabbed my Bible and opened up to this verse. This verse was already really alive in me because in 1986 i had memorized all of Matthew chapter 5 and it had been a HUGE turning point in my life when I did. I read Matthew 5:16 and felt enormous peace pour into me. then i remember my hand reaching down and flipping the pages in my Bible and my eyes immediately falling on this verse in Phillipians 2 “Do all things without complaining and disputing, that you may become blameless and harmless, children of God without fault in the midst of a crooked and perverse generation, among whom you SHINE AS LIGHTS in the world.” it was an amazing moment and a direct answer. He was asking me to shine. I closed my Bible and said yes. I wrote both verses on the front of a yellow spiral notebook that became my radio notebook for my first weeks on the air. i still have it, 25 years later. I wanted you to know that i’m creating this radio show so that i might shine in the midst of a dark world, that others might see my light and glorify my Father in heaven. thank you so much for reading this:)
#2 PLATFORM, CALLING, MESSAGE In the wake of an extraordinarily difficult time in my life last year, i felt the Lord drawing me into a season of waiting on Him. during that time, very deep and dynamic things happened between God and me. in one moment, i felt as if He revealed to my soul that He has given me a platform, He has given me a calling, and He has given me a message. very sweetly, He was saying, “Step out”. So this show is a response to things that happened in me as I was waiting on the Lord.
#3 I HEAR IT This one is kinda hard to explain, but as I go about my day, I hear the show. I hear me talking to Dwight Bain. I hear Eric Allen making me laugh. I hear Julie Thomas and I talking deeply about Jesus. I hear a big announcer voice saying something funny to introduce a feature. I hear myself passionately letting loose about things in our culture or on the news. I’m just going about my day and then I hear the show. Bits, sounds, prayers, features, topics, Bible study, callers, music, my dog barking, laughter, voices. I hear them all hahaha. So it’s either create the show or see a psychiatrist. Or maybe both. 🙂
#4 HE HAS DONE TOO MUCH On May 18th of last year, I told two of my dearest friends: God has done too much for me to keep quiet. I’ve seen too much, been forgiven too much, felt too much, known too much, been healed too much to keep quiet any longer, so I want to tell my stories and show my scars. Then, less than 2 weeks later, i began a difficult journey with God that I did not expect. From June until now, one thing has become indelibly clear: He loves me. The truth that His love is better than life compels these lips to glorify Him. I’m compelled to create a radio show that will tell the stories of His great love. I want people to know. We are so loved. Completely, relentlessly loved. And that changes everything.