(I think I had to write all this before I could sleep Sunday night because for over 8 years, I was on morning radio somewhere in America. Sunday nights were always my final moments of deep processing any huge, world-rocking event so that I could enter the lives of my friends on Monday morning with words that were ready to help their hearts feel, think, and process, too. My pattern remains to “go there” fully on Sunday nights, and so I did.)
Sometimes, you don’t know how much pain you are carrying until you are in a place of healing. Worshiping God at church today, the pain deep inside came to the surface and He lifted it away for a while, intertwined with the music that filled our sanctuary.
I spent time with friends this weekend and we all shared of our tears, tears, tears over Friday’s evil rampage on innocent life. It hits too close with all my friends who live their lives to love and protect little lives every day.
A mom of a young boy who battles some sort of undiagnosed mental illness wrote a blog that made me feel deep, deep feelings about what may be the main thing we need to talk about as a country: mental illness. What she wrote matters – here’s the link.
On Friday night, while driving alone, I listened to AM talk radio, hoping they were talking about the shooting so I could process my feelings by hearing what people were saying. God bless radio people, they were on the air with an open forum, taking calls. They took my call and gave me 5 minutes to bear my soul. Being on the radio has always been therapeutic for me.
After Jesus was born, all the baby boys under the age of two were innocent and their lives were taken. Wars, murder, evil – always here, always has been.
I want to encourage you to trust God. He sees, He loves, He saves.
I don’t know why an angel didn’t smack that shooter to ground any more than I can understand why all the evil things that happen happen every minute of every day on this planet. But I know what evil is. And I know what good is. And I know that Jesus didn’t come to earth for nothing.
Seek Him, believe in Him, receive Him today. He came to earth because we need Him.
much love – Lis